Frosty Mornings and A Fractured Mind

I love my city best in early mornings, the peaceful nature of it all just waking up to start the day. Sunlight glinting from the old buildings windows, and catching the newer installations.

 However I feel Winter has gone on long enough, my body is crying out for real sunshine, warmth and vitamin D. We'll all full of colds in our house, and Lucas does not deal well with illness(I feel sorry for his future partner) which means 1am wake up calls and exhaustion in the household.

 

 It leaves me with my usually over filled brain feeling feeling fractured and unconnected, hazy and without merit(a bit like these pictures). 

Forgetting dinner money, and meal planning; homework and cleaning;birthdays and gifts; and all the other Mum things that fill my head

 I find the half hour to myself before work most peaceful and yet most head filling, sitting in a favourite spot(anyone from Carlisle should know it) where you can hear the whole city and nature next to one another. I go through my day trying to put it in order but simply remembering more that I have planned or have forgotten.

 I feel we still have a long road ahead before we feel true Spring, and lucky for me I have a sunny holiday planned in the next few weeks. I hope to return from it restored and whole, mind working to it's true capacity.; instead of the hibernating lump it is now. 

The One Where Amanda Gets Her Groove Back

So there was a time when I was a vibrant, bubbly, unstoppable lady full of ideas & smiles but then the never ending Winter arrived & that person vanished into her fluffy pompom slippers & PJs(but not a slanket, you have to draw the line somewhere). Smiles were by-passed for mumbles, aches, pains and really bad skin & hair.I believe I have the SAD disorder where your bady copes badly with a lack of Vitamin D & shuts down, the feeling of letharghy is horrid. 
The evidence below is plain to see, sad, old, grey mummy. 

Yucky Mummy.

But then something beautiful happened & on my birthday no less, THE SUN CAME OUT, & it stayed out I felt its warm glowing energy fill me up. Refeuled have I begun work again on building my own website for Maisielu, Spring cleaning the house to sell and generally doing some great stuff with my lovely family & friends.

Enjoying the park with Maisie & Lucas, I think Hubby 

was having more fun on this swing than they were.

Me(still looking haggered but joyful) at The Brickyard(local club) Homecoming gig, pictured with Little Stu who I've known for years & is quite talented but I wouldn't tell him that as his head wouldn't fit on a photo if I did.
He played as half of The Dementers, the other half being the another Stu who is very clever and amazing on guitar, they are based in Manchester now so its great to see them play & catch up. You can see footage of the gig here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G9eJhvU6Pik sorry I wasn't that steady with the camera.

Maisie having a jog roung Hardwick Circus fountain in Carlisle,she's an adventure girl for sure, & tried to climb in a couple of times, those flowers smell devine.


Enjoy the tunes, & hopefully where ever you are some beautiful sunshine to remind you that life does go on.


Amanda.x.